I've had lots of time to think about grieving processes lately. Most of the time, i've tried to figure out how I might better enable people to grieve appropriately.
Today, I lost control of those things.
I actually started to grieve today.
Denial didn't last long, but I'm stuck on anger.
I don't know what I think about the traditional progression of stages (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance), but I know that tonight, i won't get past anger.
It feels releasing to type that. To know that there aren't forces around me currently hoping to move me through a process at their pace, but that I get to chose my pace.
So I'm Angry.
i'm somewhere in denial and acceptance. Either way, I can't sleep tonight. This stinks.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're grieving, and that you feel angry. I don't even need to know what has caused these feelings, because it still saddens me to know there is such significant pain in your life right now. You are in my prayers today.
ReplyDeleteI think the use of "stages" when people describe the grieving process is too simplistic since it may imply going from one specific step to another. All of the emotions are there and their relative prominence varies at times and situations. Even understanding the process, and going through it for different reasons or at different time periods doesn't make it easier. It's also easy to forget how much the emotional rollercoaster changes from minute to minute affects everyday actions.
ReplyDeleteWith each other, and the Lord to help us, we'll get through this.
Love, Dad