What's your job?

A pastor, quoting the therapist he was going to for counseling, said this:

"Your job is the relentless pursuit of becoming who God has made you to be. Anything else is sin."

I failed at this the last couple of weeks. I have taken great steps forward in the big picture of this task. I'm resigning from my job (effective in 3 days) and going back to school. I wholeheartedly believe that this is the "relentless pursuing" that I'm supposed to be doing. That isn't where I failed. The big picture is rarely where I fail.

I have failed in some of the smaller action steps (that are vitally important, they just aren't big picture). In the last two days, I've had to tell both my wife, and my best friend (referring to those as two different people, though my wife is my best friend) that I have failed them. Selfishness is the easiest cause, and biggest reason for both of these failures. I had big picture things well taken care of to screw things up so drastically in the action stages.

I simply wasn't the man I needed to be in either of those situations.

It often takes me too long to notice these failings. With my wife, it has taken me 5 months. Fortunately with my best friend, it only took a week or so, and has been cut off before the major damage could have been done.

It feels good to start setting both of these things right. It is my job to continue setting both of these things right. Not doing so would be sin.