Lost in Acadamia

There aren't a lot of theological discussions that I sit in on that are hard for me to follow. I have a pretty solid grasp of most theological positions out there. Today I got lost.

In a reading group for Seminary, I was surrounded by people whose academic look at a certain theology (Christological Pre-Existence) was far beyond my ability. I could follow the argument of the specific book we had read, but was left in the dust when it came to comprehension of others views. I simply don't know what the unbelieving German scholars think about this issue. When the discussion turned to other ways to argue for or against this subject, I was left treading water. I'm not used to that when it comes to theology.

On a weirder note, I can't decide if I want to put myself on a path to understand those things (this would likely drive my profession towards professor more than pastor) or if i'm comfortable letting those things remain above my head (which is a completely wonderful place).

I've been thinking a lot lately about two major options, Pastoring vs. Professoring. Both excite me tremendously. One is harder to do, in my opinion (senior pastoring) but easier to prepare for (academically), while one becomes easier to do (professor) but requires much more preparation academically.

I feel gifted for both areas, and likely will find overlap (i'd guest speak and be highly involved as a professor, or teach adjunct classes as a pastor) but have not clear decision or direction on which area I'm being led.

All of your thoughts, insights, wisdom, and prayers are appreciated.